not my legs

but if i didn't shave for two months, boy howdy.

the sun is back out. it even tried to snow a few days ago. wtfff. back up to 70 now. you know what that means. beach. my sunburn finally stopped itching from last time. back in the game.

someone i didn't know but biking in an area of boston i hate was killed this week. huntington ave is pretty bad; trolleys, cars, buses, it's the hospital area so lots of ambulences (sp?). it's awful. your tires get stuck in the tracks if you hit them right on and you are launched off your bike. it's happened to me. apparently this fellow was trying to pass a bus on the left and he fell off his bike (most likely from running in the train track) and then was run over by the bus as it was swerving back into traffic. in this case it doesn't even matter if he was wearing his helmet or not. if a bus runs over your abdomen, chest, head that's it. what a horrible way to die. there are so many stupid assholes biking in boston without their hands with their headphones on, cruising between cars half-naked, it's no surprise when someone wipes out. it's still sad when they are killed. but this person wasn't doing that. awful. i wouldn't want to see that happen.

i'm also really disturbed after reading about that girl from hadley who killed herself. i've lived near that area briefly. weird. i've also been traumatized in high school and know how bad it can get. like being spit on and attacked. i never wanted to kill myself because of that but god knows i can sympathize with people who go shooting in their schools. it opens this pretty ugly side of yourself. i wonder if the girl's parents were catholic. i wonder if she didn't get a "proper" burial because of that. i wonder if the parents of the bullies whupped their kid's asses. bullying is as old as the hills and being a teenager sucks major dick. i know it was the worst time of my life. still have frequent nightmares about it. most people probably get it or give it. i wish i could hold this girl and tell her that high school is just a hill to get over. poor thing.

christ. i'm gonna get a sandwich and move on. bummed out.