shit's been interesting lately. i work two part time jobs because i'm a college dropout and can't decide what i want to "do" with my life. i'd go to dental school but am just living paycheck to paycheck right now...like the past ten years. but it could be worse. i'm not totally unhappy. pretty content, actually.
i have either crohns disease or colitis. similar things. everything i consume gives me discomfort, the end result is not eating much. i've become sort of obsessed with food and losing weight (not trying to, just how it is catching me off guard). my highest weight in boston was 165, which wasn't too large as i'm pretty tall, now down to 135-140. seems like a pretty dull disease but at the worst a colon removal happens. god.
joe moved to logan square and his cat died the same day, which has shattered him. his free time leads to him being blasted. he chugs from bottles of vodka. chugs! obviously i'm concerned for his health and state of mind, but when he tries to become amorous or talk about serious things and his eyes are out of focus and he has marble mouth and looks all bloated i just become angry. he's already been to rehab and would never go back. it's such a turn-off. i do not like drunks. i get blasted sometimes, lately only when at gingerman with a girlfriend when chris mccaughan is bartending because he makes me so fucking nervous i can't handle it. but i can't understand being drunk every night. i can't do it. i wanna help joe.
another anniversary of my brother's death has come and gone. giant blizzard, boring. need a new bike. it's been about a year since i moved to chicago. def. did the right thing at the time. how long i'll stay here i don't know. i like to move around. but things are getting so interesting...
i dunno. gotta go get my bike and check out my art show (that feels fucking weird to say even though it's not the first time). some extra cash would be good. L and L tonight after work. i'll smell like hickory smoke, tastycakes.
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