stomach burrrrnnn

uhh what's new. a "friend" of mine has a layover at midway wednesday. yesterday i went there to know how long it would take, etc. to avoid the subway i took the 49 all the way down western. all the way. i was on that bus for an hour and it wasn't even rush hour. it was kind of awesome. saw a lot of areas i hadn't seen before. saw some real squalor. took the scenic route. sat with some of those god-praisin' baptist round black women. one thing about me is that i'm
terrified of airplanes
never been on one, never even been close, never considered it. seeing one lower in the sky than normal makes my stomach burn. at my old house the sound of airplanes was so loud and constant that it'd often wake me up in a start. western hits the orange line which goes to midway. wednesday morning i'll go back to see my friend, laugh and scream and make out with him, be those annoying/cute people at the airport.

saturday taking part in a video shoot. i couldn't really tell you what it is, arty but not porn. it'll be shown at the art museum (which one, i'm not sure) and i might get to wear a costume. really i'm going on little information and that's fine. i need some stimulation in my life.
last week some high school kids interviewed me talking (me make talk good) about tattoos for their after-school film thing. that was kind of fun.
twice last week i took the bus down irving park out to the suburbs...or what felt like it. why not?
i need some rolling papers.
cleaning in my apartment is surprising and revolting all at once. past tenants included junkies and crackheads and, well, they're just forgetful. some of the condiments in the fridge expired up to ten years ago. the pantry has/had a layer of dead bugs and larve shells that i've never imagined. the front windows had a layer of dirt and grime so thick you couldn't see outside, just blur. good heavens. good thing i like cleaning. and i don't have allergies, which is a plus.

today i got nothin. drawing for a show, watching hamlet and drinking coffee sounds good. i like theatre and mozart and rococo style, but i also like porkin' on a dirty mattress to dead kennedys. not a snooty classy dame.